Tuesday, 2 June 2015

    Despite my initial aversion to being treated at a children's hospital, my transfer to the Janeway ended up lifting my spirits (to the extent one's spirits can be lifted after a cancer diagnosis). My new lodgings were in stark contrast to the gloominess of the adult's side. I was now in a much larger room, with a full corner of large widows, and painted in bright red, blues, and yellows. The cartoon characters on the walls were a little off putting, but anything that provided some visual stimulation was a welcome sight compared to the drab room I was coming from. 

    This has often caused me to wonder why all hospitals aren't designed with a little more cosmetic appeal. Yes it may cost a little more to build them this way, but shouldn't the comfort of the patients be one of the first goal of a hospital? Especially those who have to reside there longterm. 

    When I first started my treatment I was stuck in that room for a month, unable to even go down the hall for a walk. I'm still not sure how I never came unraveled at times (maybe that's why they give you Ativan). I don't even want to think about what it would've been like to spend the same amount of time in my old room at the Health Science; there are people who do have to spend that amount of time there, and for much, much longer.

    People were often surprised at how little I complained about being ill. It partially had to do with a distaste that I've always possessed of pushing my own troubles on others. However I also kept myself in the frame of mind that there would always be someone worse off than me, and therefore I had little right to complain. Besides complaining doesn't ever make anything better; it just makes you more aware of the complaint. I'm not saying you should forgo seeking help for pain at risk of sounding like a complainer (that's just being foolish), or even that you should never complain. All I'm getting at is that I bet if you try complaining a little less your day will turn out a little better. 

That's my thoughts for the day! Thanks for reading!
Jordan.